If you want to do good, you will have Heavenly assistance. If you want to connect more deeply with HaShem (literally "the name"-meaning the Eternal), you will be led to the practices that will do that.
Desire to deepen in the truth of returning to your soul and gates will open.
Deepening in spirituality is not an easy path. It is not meant to be. It is meaningful and purposeful and fulfilling. It will leave you with ever more questions. The discoveries will open with time. Like a flower, each of us unfolds in her own time. There's no need to pull on the petals to make the flower open faster. There's no reason to rush another in her journey.
You're not alone on your spiritual path so be clear about what you want and the way will open for you.